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Januari Månadens Yogi – Liisa Selenius

Januari Yogi 2018 – Liisa Selenius

Vi har börjat ett nytt år och vi har tänkt hålla igång även våra inlägg om olika människors inre yogaresor. Alla yogisar har sin egen historik och sina egna upplevelser. Jag har alltid varit så fascinerad över att läsa om och lyssna till dessa ”resor”. Vi står själva bakom våra ord det finns ingen som Yoga inte passar för, den finns till för alla om man bara är intresserad och är redo att ta det på sin egen kropps vilkor. Vi utövar, utvecklas och däremellan stannar vi upp för att reflektera. Vi yogar inte på basen av body image, utan flexibiliten och kvalitén kommer nog från vårt inre. Jag totalt älskar mångfalden av yogisarna som vi ser på våra klasser – Det är bara så underbart vackert! Oberoende kroppsform, ålder eller kön, så ryms man i samma gemenskap, i samma yogaklass. Här följer en intressant story av en inspirerande yogi – Liisa:

”I teorin vet jag att jag måste ha hört om yoga för länge sen eftersom jag läst det mesta som finns att läsa inom ämnet hälsa, motion och psykiskt välbefinnande. Men yogan var så ointressant för mig att jag aldrig ens tänkte på den – det fanns ju så många olika träningsformer, allt kunde man ju inte hålla på med. Så kunde det nog ha fortsatt om jag inte, för två år sen, börjat intressera mig för buddhismen. Som bön är en central del av kristendomen så är meditation centralt inom buddhismen. Efter att läst på massor så gjorde jag mina första försök att meditera. Det gick inte alls bra. Det spelade ingen roll hur bra instruktioner jag hade, jag klarade aldrig av att uppleva tystnaden mer än någon sekund. Det var då jag fick höra talas om att de hade klasser i meditation på yogastället i Godby och kände att det måste jag ge ett försök.

Väl på plats så blev jag inspirerad av lokalen och den trevliga stämningen. Så jag blev nyfiken på att lära mig mer om yogan, där meditation ju bara är en liten del. En sak som jag märkte var att även fast yogan är helt ny för mig, så är grunden den samma inom väldigt många motionsformer. Känner igen massor från annat jag gjort. Andningsövningarna kan jag väldigt rakt se likheten med. Den korta inandningen och långa utandningen finns i de flesta simsätt. Det djupa långa, lugna andetaget från vandring i naturen. Den intensiva men djupa andningen från joggningen. Vid hårdare träning så måste man lyssna på kroppen, vilken sport man än håller på med. Men i yogan var det mer uttalat. Man lyfter fram kontakten mellan ens tankevärld och vad ens kropp hela tiden berättar om sig själv. Det är det nya, att man gör plats åt mötet mellan kropp och tanke på ett mer uttalat sätt än i andra motionsformer. Det som funnits där i bakgrunden läggs här fram som det mest viktiga. Det var nog det jag missade förut, när jag kommit i kontakt med yogan så har det bara handlat om den fysiska träningsformen. Hur olika positioner ser ut, hur man ska göra för att det ska bli rätt och så vidare. Alltså bara de tråkiga delarna.

Jag började i höstas, så jag är så ny att jag knappt skulle kalla mig nybörjare på yoga. Har flera svårläkta skador i kroppen som gör att jag måste gå väldigt försiktigt fram. Men det stressar mig inte, det är inte att komma fram till något specifik form som lockar mig, utan själva kommunikationen mellan min kropp och min tankevärld. Och sen förstås, ha det riktigt skönt och trevligt under tiden.”

Tusen tack Liisa för att du delade av dej din resa i yogan! Tack!

Namasté!

-Karoliina

Några tankar om yoga och enkla saker du kan göra som hjälper dej och alla andra i din Shala

Hur upplever du din yogapraktik? Vilka saker uppskattar du? Och slutar din yoga praktik när savasana är slut eller kanske strävar du att ta Yogan hela vägen ut i världen som väntar utan för? Ju längre man yogar, desto mer inser man hur yogan planteras in i allt vi gör och hur vi väljer att göra saker och ting. Låt oss ta en titt på den yogiska filosofin och kanske väcks några tankar om yoga och enkla saker du kan göra som hjälper dej och alla andra i din Shala och utanför.

Den yogiska filosofin innehåller nåt som kallas Ashtanga, Yogans åtta vägar till självkännedom eller de åtta delarna av Yoga. Oftast begränsar vi i våra tankar om yogan att vara bara de fysiska övningarna men det finns sju delar som du kanske aldrig tänkt på eller kanske inte ens hört talas om. Dessa åtta vägarna är nåt vi försöker plantera in i våra liv så gott vi bara kan för att utvecklas till att bli den bästa versionen av oss själva. Tidigare lärdes Yogan och dess filosofi direkt från en Guru till elev, men på 400- talet skrevs det en sammanfattning av den Yogiska filosofin i form av Sutras, av Patanjali. Patanjalis Yogasutras är en av de äldsta skrifterna inom yogan som förklarar olika metoder för att träna sinnet och ta kontroll över kroppen.

Yama = förhållningssätt och riktlinjer för hur vi agerar, (Ahimsa = ickevåld, Satya = att hålla oss till sanningen/att vara sann, Ashteya = att icke stjäla eller vara missunsam, Bramacharya = förhållandet till kroppsvätskor, Aparigraha = att förhålla sig Lagom) det agerande såsom ”Jag utifrån mig själv i denna stund har mot Världen och Allt som existerar i den”. Utifrån min egen nivå på medvetenheten väljer Jag hur jag ser på allt de som existerar utanför mig, det betyder också hur jag berörs av hur andra ser på mig.

Niyama förhållningssätt och riktlinjer för beteende och tankesätt, (Saucha = att praktisera renhet, både kroppsligt och i tanke, Santocha = att vara nöjd med det jag har och inte har, Tapas = disciplin, vanan att ha gränser, fysiska och mentala, Swadhayaya = självstudier på det Sanna Jaget, Ishwarapranidhana = överlämna mig till det Gudomliga, vad än nu var och ens personliga Gudsbild eller Naturkraft må vara) inom mig pågår en ständig process. Hur jag förhåller mig till dessa fysiska, mentala och känslomässiga processer inom mig faller under Niyama, alltså hur jag förhåller mig till mig själv.

Asana = Fysiska positioner och övningar, kroppsställningar, som utövas för att rena, stärka kroppen och få sinnet att klarna och lugna sig inför meditation.

Pranayama = Kontroll av livskraft / andning, olika andningstekniker.

Pratyahara = Att vända sinnet inåt. Att fokusera på de störande sinnet inåt och på de sättet nå tystnad och klarhet.

Dharana = koncentration, att fokusera det klara sinnet mot ett objekt för att släppa alla eventuella hinder mot total fokus.

Dhyana = Meditation. Fokusering och total medvetenhet om endast objektet för fokusering tex. Andetaget. Inga hinder utan total klarhet.

Samadhi = Förening och uppgång till det Gudomliga. Eller en union med det högre medvetandet. Yoga.

Här är kanske varför många gånger Yogan växlas ihop med religion, men jag ser det ”Gudomliga” att vara precis vad än det sen är i den människans värld, som praktiserar yoga. Gud eller det Gudomliga är inte något som är fastspikat i den yogiska filosofin, utan ett mera universalt sätt att omfamna alla, oberoende sin livsåskådning.

Om du tänker tillbaka på allt du just läst, kanske kan du även tänka nästa gång när du kommer upp från din Savasana att vara medveten i allt det du gör som nästa. Kanske kan du vara lite extra uppmärksam på hur snabbt eller långsamt du rör dej, kanske låter du lugnet dröja kvar, så att även andra i shalan får behålla sitt tillstånd av lugn och harmoni? Även om att det kan vara en utmaning med allt som väntar utanför, men vet du… de där sakerna försvinner ingenstans. Kanske tar du lite mera tid att vika filten prydligt, precis som den var när du tog den i början av klassen. Eller kanske om filten var ovarsamt vikt så ger du nästa yogi en gåva i form av en snyggt och med omtanke vikt filt. Detta sparar ju även oss yogalärare enormt med tid när vi förbereder klasserna, att inte behöva vika om varje filt. Introduktion om filtens vikning kommer nedan. Även att torka av sin matta och rulla ihop mattan till så liten rulle som möjligt sparar mattorna på slitage och är fräscha för nästa yogi att använda. Har det varit väldigt svettig yogaklass så kanske även klossarna behöver en snabb avtorkning. Om vi riktigt tänker efter är allt detta en del av Yamas och Niyamas.

Filtvikning som gör alla glada!

Vad säger du? Ska vi fördjupa gemensamt vår Yogapraktik och ta praktiken hela vägen ut? Kanske om du ser någon ha bråttom eller glömmer hur vi sköter om våra verktyg i shalan, kan vi tillsammans hjälpa att påminna den nästa. Utan att glömma kultiveringen av tankar, ord och handlingar av vänlighet och respekt. Tillsammans är vi Ett. Union. Yoga.

Ha en underbart yogisk dag!

Namaste!

New Years Intension – 2018, året av själv kärlek och vård!

Eka Pada Rajakapottasana – Kung Duva Variation

New Years Intention – 2018, året av Självkärlek och vård!

Har du nånsin tänk det här kring NyÅrslöften som vi mer eller mindre tvingar oss göra varje år pga vana och kanske även av skuldkänslan av att inte göra stora löften om allt de magnifika självplågandet vi måste göra för att må bättre, vara snyggare och bättre på alla sätt och vis? Har du tänkt nånsin hur året nog börjar effektivt och bra, men ändå börjar det snart kännas tungrott och samvetet som aldrig slutar gnaga dej i bakhuvudet. Aldrig lyckas man liksom?! Men frågan är varför ska vi plåga oss med orealistiska löften som leder till att vi bara mår sämre av när det inte går som planerat – Kanske vi kan göra året 2018 till ett år av en ny vana, som stöder vårt välmående, istället för att det skapar ångest och nedstämdhet. Och har du gjort ett löfte på NyÅrsAftonen, vad gör väl det? Du kan alltid välja ändring precis när som helst du känner behovet. Byt löftet mot intention och märk skillnaden.

Vad är det jag pratar om? Detta är hur jag resonerar kring det hela. När vi gör löften om det kommande året eller när vi gör löften närsomhelst i olika sammanhang, dels pga att vi vill göra ändring i oss själva och vi vill inte vara besvikelse för andra på ett sätt eller annat. Och den vanligaste nyårslöftet jag hört är typ ”Jag ska gå ner X kg och gymma minst 4-5 gg i veckan!”. Första tanken som slår mig är, Varför vill man man gå tex ner i vikt och träna? Vad är det som gör att man vill ändra på sin form? Är det pga att du verkligen av hälsoskäl eller pga att du vill ändra på ditt utseende för att känna dej bättre? Är det bara pga bodyimage, så är inte löftet gjort på basen av kärlek och respekt till dig själv utan tvärtemot. Om vi tänker av detta perspektiv, så redan grunden kommer från en mörk plats inombords och vad händer när vi inte lyckas hålla löftet? Kommer vårt mående att ta en djupdykning till en ännu djupare grop i träsket? Och samma händer vilket än löftet vi inte lyckas att hålla är, vi bygger på skuldkänslor och mår illa inombords. Och frågar du mig så tycker jag att det är rena rama vansinnet att utsätta sig själv sånt lidande, när det alltid finns ett annat val att göra.

Varför skulle intentionssättande vara annorlunda? Intention är baserad på vårt eget förhållande till ett framtida beteende. Så när vi vill sätta en intention av förändring av nåt i vårt liv och utveckling är grunden till intentionen, det mest viktiga. Så när man tänker sätta en intention är det viktigaste att fråga dej själv VARFÖR? När du svarat på frågan så frågar du VARFÖR?, om och om igen, tills du är säker på att din intention har inget med någon annan än dej själv att göra och att intentionen är baserats bara och endast på din kärlek och respekt jämte mot dej själv. Att sätta intention är alltså en psykologisk sätt att helt enkelt tydligt definiera sitt eget syfte med varför man gör saker inom de olika roller man har i livet, som; yrke, familjeförhållanden, vänner o s v.

Min Intention för kommande året är att praktisera dagligen att närvara för mig själv och ta ansvar för mitt eget välmående helt och fullt. Inte bara på yoga mattan utan även i de vardagliga diskutioner och situationer med mig själv och betona bemötandet med attitud av vänlighet, kärlek och förlåtelse. Att respektera mig själv gällande vart jag sätter min tid och energi är även en stor del av denna intention, eftersom jag tenderar lova mig hit och dit trots att jag inte känner för eller skulle behöva prioritera vila och lugn för mig själv. Och när jag frågar mig själv Varför, är svaret rätt enkelt. För att jag vill Leva Livet med fullt hjärta, inte lida och bara simpelt överleva. Tar jag hand om mina egna behov, räcker jag även ut till andra. Respekterar jag mig själv, kommer även andra göra det. Genom mitt sätt att vara, leva och lära kanske kan jag även inspirera och stärka andra att hitta ett mera tillfreställande sätt att leva mera fullt liv. Ett liv som inkluderar självvård som berikar vällmåendet vad än det sen må för var och en att vara.

Önskar Er Alla ett år fylld med kärlek, ljus och frid. Låt oss ägna 2018 till att bli ett år av självvård, kärlek och personlig utveckling.

Namasté!

//Karro

Why do We Yoga??

There is as many answers and reasons to This as there is practicers. Some yoga for to shape their body or get more flexible, some because they they seek something more spiritual to their lives and some just simple because it’s cool to get to all these fancy positions and because it’s popular. What ever the reason then may be there is no right or wrong. We all have a starting point and in somepoint it will turn More to the direction of deeper path with in us selves.

I know many who started their Yoga Journey because it’s great ”gymnastics” but after many years of practice The attitudes towards The practice has changed. One of my dear friends had bursted into tears after a practice because she had suddenly felt that total connection between the everything and all at once. She got so overwhelmed that her tears were running for hours.

How she explained was that, ”Before in my practice I have always felt these physical body issues of tightness or weakness or pain and that has been what I have worked with… This time I did not feel my body in that way. I felt it but at The same Time not. Instead of feeling weakness, locks, pain or stiffness I felt feelings! That was so scary and wonderful at The same time… Fear for letting go and moving forward was so rooted in my hips and knees and my upper back and chest was out of Love… Love that I have not allowed my self…”

I was so glad for her because I saw that she had This totally new bliss in her apperience. The calmness and warmth that she radiates is candy for a sore eye.

One of my teachers told about a same kind of journey. And there is so many different paths. So many kind of histories behind each and one of us. Backgrounds that makes us to who We are.

For me Yoga was in the beginning a way to destress. I loved breathing exercises and how it calmed me down. I have a long history of Self destructional behavior as bulimic disorder, ortorexia and panic attacks. Pranayama was my main practice and meditation. I studiet some books and tested out little bit asanas but We didn’t really have any yoga teachers near by what I know of. It tok many years for me to find to Asana practice wich I feel NOW that was a good thing. The risk of practicing With Ego would have had serious damages, if I know my self that well. I would have pushes furter and furter and hurting my self. Now I feel safe and stabile in my own practice and my Journey is still to find my Self. I have come far but there is still lots to discover. In meditation, asana practice, Pranayama, Karma Yoga…. In all The daily routines I practice yoga in some way. It keeps me on The right way. It gives me The feeling that I’m enough and good as I am.

So what ever your reasons are to do Yoga or do others practice, do it because it makes you feel good. If it makes you feel good The reason doesn’t even matter.

Sometimes I get sad when I think about how much I have hurted my self but then I realize that it was my Dharma it made me to what I am NOW and it all have served a greater purpose.

I just want to say a couple of final words… All you readers out there who are feeling too heavy, or too thin, too unflexible, too ugly or not just worthy any good. I’m maybe little round but even that is a shape you know. I’m sooo unflexible but still I’m teaching Yoga. And the rest of those things, they just aren’t true. You are freaking awesome!! Just perfect as you are. We all are .

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Religion and Yoga

Is Yoga a religion or a cult? And what is Yoga? Can everyone do Yoga ni matter of their religionists backgrounds?

These are interesting questions for me as a Yoga Teacher and Practicer in a country that is mainly Christen Lutheric. I find my self in conflict with most of worlds religions because of all The fanatism and judgementalism around religions. That doesn’t nessacary mean that I don’t have believes, because I do feel that there is some bigger force in this world than We as humans, at The same Time that I believe that We all are part of that bigger picture. We all are needed here as much as The other, no matter of color, religion or origin. You, Me… All beings around us. Breathing and working in The same symbios With each other.

How ever Christen religion in Christen countrys are often Said to be The religion of peace and acceptans and many other religions are said to be more fanatical than The other and leading to violence and bunch of other terrible things around The World . Yes, there is terrible things happening but most of these things aren’t just in The name of religion but also part of old culturel legasys that many organizations are working on to change (for example child marriges). But what comes to Yoga and religion I have got chocked by the attitude towards practicing Yoga here among the Christen Finland.

There has been several articles in news papers about The Dangers of Practicing Yoga. How it can cause you a danger form of psycosis and lead you to unpure path that leads straight to The Devil….

I haven’t come across from any other religios practicers any judgements at all. I  know practicers from most of the religions and We all have our believes of that Yoga can help you to connect to the ”bigger picture”, to The Universe, God, Brahman what ever you see as your thruth. It helps you to find The balance and calmness within you, in body and in mind. I have fully respect for any once believes and I would hope that We all could see it The same. 

There is one thruth. There are many paths.

-Swami Satchidananda 

I see my self as a part of a uneversal cycle. As the antz has their part of this huge play, I do to. We don’t always know what our roll really is because many times our purpose or Dharma happens without you knowing it. Even when you feel that you don’t really do anything important but a simple thing as smiling to a stranger can change someones life and that person in her/ his turn does something paying it forward…. Everything affects everything. So I many times say when people are angry at them selves missing asana practice, that every kind word or thought is Yoga too. Yoga is Union, it’s bounding us all together. We are all part of the Divine plan.

I know that what causes these point of views about many things is the fact that We humans tenden to hate everything We don’t understand and are in that matter afraid of. And many times We let the horror of unknown to keep us away from to even search knowledge about what We don’t understand. But it doesn’t have to be that way! We can choose how we cultivate our attitudes. Instead of being shut down in fear We could choose to think; Hmm, I don’t understand This and it’s scary, but It’s okay. I’ll learn More about this and then make my opinion without judging others.

We don’t need to always like everything but We can choose to respect others and their opinions without doing harm in words or in actions.

So no matter who you are, what you believe in, or what ever is your ”status”…

I see you. I respect you. I Love you. Peace and Love – Namaste!

Yoga and Menopause / Andropause

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Sometimes these life changes comes out from the woods, when they really are least expected. Menopause can be one of those things. But is there a way of easing the bodily effects from menopause with out turning into anti depressive and hormones ??  Can Yoga help?? And how to know if you have menopause?? This not just for the ladies because menopause hits also the men. Symptoms just vary a bit…

Here is a list of symptoms that could be your menopause to you ladies.

Mens list is little different and there are constantly discussions about if it is a myth or not. But question; Why would it be any different to age for men than us women? Here is information about male menopause or also called andropause.

Here is also Baxters awesome post about our fellow male Yogis in menopause, because obviously I’m a woman and can mostly prefer to my own experiences.

What both men and women are though often experiencing is  the sudden stiffness in joints and muscles and can even experience pain issues, lack of energy, feeling low and the focus is straight out of the window.

Couple of weeks I was really frustrated about this new situation and it was definitely limiting my own Yoga practice. Suddenly I couldn’t even do a simple standing forward bend and moving in Surya Namaskars was a struggle I’ve not had since cancer and I lived in the same temple. I was devastated! And it did not seem to go away. My much loved vinyasa flow was no more a flow, it was getting stuck in traffic! My inversions in most cases just increased the symptoms and I got totally lack of energy and the hot flashes just got more aggressive. Omg… I have got in a menopause… (early menopause can be a result of heavy cancer treatments in many cases)

I had to take my self little time to go back to the basics. Study what made the symptoms worse and with once eased my being. Things like just to ground and land in asanas. Really creating a relationship between the ground, mind, breath and body. I use lots of props as support in backbends and choose softer inversions instead of the advanced once. A true practice of letting go – non attachment. I love inversion and sweaty, intensive flows… Letting it be. Being here is what is now.

It felt good to slow down even though it tok me a week daily practice to let the vinyasa flow from my mind. I missed it. But without even thinking I started to each time in discomfort of missing ”flow”, I started to turn my self over and over again towards my ujjayi breathing. With out even noticing I started to slow the breath down even more than usually and let every transformation and movement in my practice to take time through the whole inhalation vs exhalation. My practice became reeeaaaally slow. Much of the time I close my eyes and just move on the waves of breath and listening to my body how it wants to move. Being soft in the mind will cultivate the softness even in your body. How liberating !

I started to feel less stiff, annoyed, down and feeling less of pain. My mind is calmer and even my swollen tummy has started to take it’s normal look. I still have feeling of that my quality of sleep is not what it should but definitely better.

So even when you feel that your menopause is eating your joy of moving, don’t stop! Just change the characteristics of your practice until it feels ready to do more advanced practice again. It is okay to slow down and just good for each and one of us every now and then. Either you are in menopause /andropause or not.

Yoga has shown the benefits to calm down your sympathetic nervous system that will give you less feeling of discomfort and will balance you up to manage your every day life better. So give your self some love on your yoga mat and feel the difference. Be aware of what makes you feel worse and what makes you feel better. Advanced inversions and high tempo can increase your symptoms you don’t want , so listen to your body, be wise – Be a good Yogi.

Namaste!

How to be a good Yoga Teacher?

 What does it take to be a good Yoga teacher or an Inspirer of any kind? There are so many questions… Am I flexible enough? Am I wise enough? Am I fit enough?… and the list goes on.

These questions I have wondered about for a while now. Sometimes I even feel that I don’t really have anything ”wise” to share with my OMies, and that is when you start to get frustrated and uninspired.

Today I had a class, and while still was at home I was reading some discussions on my Messenger feed between me and some of the ones I coach, not just with yoga, but also helping otherwise through difficult states of life… And I came to think about Yamas and Niyamas. There were so many things I just saw how to work work the things by Yamas that I ended up to build my class around them. Here is a video by Echart Yoga about Yamas.

It turned out to be one of the best classes ever, I think….

But what has this to do with the Yamas and being a good teacher?

I was recently on a Online workshop on Yoga Alliance, we had a great teacher, and we talked about teaching and how to be a good teacher. Michelle Thielen (RYT500, founder of YogaFaith, a nonprofit Christian RYS 200 & RYS 300 school) had such a great message about how we way too often let the chatterbox inside of our heads break our self-confidence and qualities down. When we should instead of be thinking that we all have something to give others. We all have life wisdom and qualities that others value highly. She talked about how we should turn the negative chatterbox to a passive chatterbox and instead of constant questioning our own roll as a teacher to see all the possibilities and the positive sides of you as teacher.

As always we ended the workshop with Q&As and there was a bunch of great questions and Michelle gave such a value with the answers. But the base of it all… How to be a good teacher is to be AUTHENTIC. And there I was back to Yamas! Satya, the practice of Truthfulness, being true to yourself and to others. I think it was just such a great closer for today.

Have you practiced Yamas lately?

Short post today, but I really want to encourage all you new yoga teachers to join Yoga Alliance. The value in that community is priceless.

Namaste

  

  

Importance of being adaptable as Yoga teacher

  Many time we teachers before workshops or classes tenden to make strickt plans how the class is built and how it is going to be. 

Sometimes we even get disappointed or mad towards us selves if the plans don’t go through. 

When I started to teach Yoga I had so clear visions about the class all the way from beginning to it’s end and I remember how devastating it was when the plans did not go together with the reality. I felt so little and sad about the fact that I could not deliver a ”perfect” class to my students. It was heart breaking. I’m all the way into the bone marrow one who wants to serve and hate making others disappointed. I was terrified to loose my tone in shanting or say something totally wicked.

But what surprised me was that many times when I lost my plans during the classes, and when the class ended people started to come to me to thank me for a really great class. I started to soften. I started to loosen up and were not that afraid of making ”mistakes”. 

Today we have had Mind Day on one of the places there I teach yoga. I’m used to hold my classes alone and used to compromise with just my self and the yogis on their mats, so today was a totally new experience. Today I teached  in pair with a fellow teacher. 

We had not had time to do the test classes together to do a test drive before this day because sometimes Life happens and time runs out.

Hahaha… I can tell you, this day didn’t go at all as planned BUT we adjusted so smoothly on the situation and we made it to ROCK any ways! And it was a great deal of fun!!

We had planed a technique class and after a class based on these asanas but as the OMies wanted to continue with the techniques to find the asanas for each one of the students, based on their own physical abilities. So we decided to do double asana technique class. And I have to say that I’m a total technique nerd!! So I did not mind at all. It was so beautiful to feel the energy of these lovely people studying the asanas and to find their way of the movement and finding the ground, strength, relaxation and connection to the breath. I’m so tired but happy right now. But there is still one class to teach today… Sunday Funday 😉

And what comes to the making mistakes… I did do some today. Maybe I was the only one noticing, maybe not. But it’s not a big deal 🙂

Sometimes I do give quite funny instructions in my class and I offer the class a really good laughter. Or while doing balances ; hand balances or headstands, giving instructions, forgetting to concentrate on the asana and loosing the balance and ending up in face plant or falling down…. Not a big deal. I’m used to be the clown of the group through whole my life and it’s my way to shake of things like that. This has actually even turned to my benefits. 

Like one of my students said so nicely.

”I love your classes because you are human in first place instead of a Teacher, which feels so relaxing.”

But I think it’s all about being humble. I don’t know everything. I’m on the journey too, just like everyone else.

We are all humans. No one is better than the other. Teacher or student. And by remembering this makes the practice easier for all the practisers in the shala. Many times there is this fear of not being good/ flexible enough to practice on classes on the shala that holds us back from taking the next step in our yogic journey. As we put aside the feeling of ”not being worthy” the magic happens and the great journey can begin. This comes even for teachers…. We are all different and there will always be students who are guided to you for a reason. Be grateful, be joyful and Shine your light.

I feel like I kind of ended up on side ways now but what I want to say is;

Life is on constant movement. You never know what you will meet in your class. Feel out the energies and don’t force a surtent class to happen as planned if the energies don’t support it. Be adaptable to form the class to what your students needs not what you want to teach or show. Be humble and serve as a teacher.

  

Serving the world or emptying your own cup?

Are You feeling All these strange things and feelings happening to You ?

Having The feeling that You can’t control these things and You desperately seek ways to numb down these inner voices and feelings? Are you constantly serving and just emptying your own cup?… These feeling may have nothing to do with you. Maybe you just are too open to let others energies confuse your own balance.

I know how it feels. Let me tell you something from my life as it used to be. Long way before I had my near dead experience and before I started to study Yoga for real.

Many times I felt that I was all the time so full of these outer vibes and impressions that I got totally lack of energy. Sometimes I felt that I was going nuts. Somehow I know that I have always been open to different energies around us and felt everything, each person who were near by me. I felt their energies and I didn’t know how to control it at all and still I some times felt the urge to help by touching or being near. I felt almost never in balance, only when I was totally by my self in middle of the nature. But even there I could be drawn to places with confusing energies that I could not understand, like someone wanted to talk to me. In some point I was so darn tired of never being in my own energies so I started to relax through booz, sleep, heavy training, working a lot with saving and taking care of others, I even tried antidepressive medications to get away. I can tell it didn’t work that well.

For long I was so lost but finally found home within…

FullSizeRender 63Lately I have reflected a lot about my senses.
I have always experienced that my senses are almost supernatural.

It’s a gift but sometimes almost as a curse.

I have From that I was little communicated with animals of any kind; helping birds, hedgehogs and even mice and frogs ( my mother sometimes were going nuts over my mission to help All these beings and dragging them to our house).

I have since little could tell that someone is sick just By their scent. I often could tell my little brother was getting sick before anyone else noticed anything.

I can feel at a quite long range someone is having Bad feelings or intuitions or is in really dark place, because The vibrations hit me with open Hand right over my face.
I used to take it personally, I took these feelings to my be my own without even noticing this. It still happens sometimes but I’m fast noticing if it is Me or Someone else causing the feelings.

Now a days I do a lot guided meditations after my classes. Sometimes I just talk it through but sometimes I give a light touch or massage while they lay in Shavasana. I have almost stopped making my guided meditation texts ”ready to go”, I just pick the vibes during the class that gives the right words. There is always a guideline hanging in the air and someone needing the right words to release and guide them from their ”pain”… And mostly they serve the whole class anyway.

My whole life friends and Family members have felt urge to be near to me when they felt pain, tension or lack of energy just for to get my hands on them… And I did it just By intuation. I felt the need and I served.Then I did not know either how to separate my own energetic field from others and I emptied my self quite a lot.

For long Time I thought It was something seriously wrong with me. I really started to Believe I was going nuts!!

This is how I have lived my whole Life.

Many years of trying to balance This All, I did hit The rock bottom.
I was a Massage Therapist working long days, surprise…. Healing All day long. Kind of knowing that I was slowly killing my Self By draining All Life energy out of me on others.

While I was sick in Cancer I had to face everything. I had to stop and really start to listen to my body. I was terminal so I know I was dying and The Life and Time was running through my fingers.

I started to speak with my cells. I spoke kindly. I engouraged them to get back to Work. I promised to take care of my part and support them any way I can.

And surprisenly I started to heal. After 1,5 years I was Cancer Free. I did take The traditional treatments even if I combined it with alternative treatments, even without my Dr:s approval. But I did what my body told me to do. And I chose to listen more to my body…

Honestly, noone believed that I would survive This Cancer at All. I got more or less a month to live.  And Now I have 23 months Cancer Free.

What comes to my senses, they are even stronger…

I am still learning to master The balance and I’m learning All The Time something new.

I choose wisely where and when I give “my touch” , I have learned to close The Bad vibes outside of myself. I have learned how to protect my own space now.

I’ve learned to listen more to my cells and give my self what The body needs.
With practicing Yoga it can be tricky and I have to really listen when it is my cells and mind speaking and when it is my ego trying to master The body or just me trying to quiet the voices within.

My sense of smell is even more sensitive now a days and I try to find a way to use It wisely. How do You bring a message to someone that “You should really seek a doctor…”?
For long I have felt This Like heavy burden but I start to realize that even If I can help just one person with it it’s all good.

If You regonize your self By This or You know someone else who is feeling disconnected within. Shattered and can’t place your finger on The pain point.

Connect with me !! Together We can find a way to find The Strength and Balance ♥️

Love and appreciate your special gifts. Thay are not there By accident,
You have a purpose!!

Love and Light!

Karoliina
 

The power of choosing joy

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Yes! I just love Warriors <3

Have you ever had one of those days when You just would like to stay in bed and pretend that you don’t even exist? Feeling the struggle getting stuck in your throat but you can’t scream? How to overcome these negative thoughts and feelings??
Honestly, I have had one of those days today. For a moment I frizzed and felt after if I should just call it a day and hide at home instead of do those things I had planed to todays evening. But just for a moment. I had to snap out of it…
It is so easy to let your mind get gripped of panic, frustration and disappointments and get stuck in those moments and feelings. But the real question is, is it serving you some how? And don’t get me wrong. It is totally human to have bad days and it is okay to brake down for a moment. But you will do your self a huge favor if you after you have noticed the feeling, accept it and then let go of it. And it is really important that you accept that feeling  and do not try to hide it away. Every feeling is okay to feel. But there is a difference to reflect and accept feelings and thoughts and to get stuck in to those.
Like I told, I almost got stuck today. I’m that kind of person who often are stuck in a feeling for a very short time and then I’m over it and all positive again. My feeling that I’ve got little stuck in started yesterday. I got some little worrying news. Don’t know yet any facts on this problem but just because I saw my husband breakdown in to tears got me totally out of my mind setting and I got stuck in the feeling of disappointment.
Disappointment towards that there is a change that the cancer might be back. And that still is just MIGHT. So today I was really tired and had lack of joy . I had booked a dinner date with a new friend that i had ever seen before, but she is a New exam Yoga teacher and I felt that she is someone I would really like to know. But I felt the lust of hide at home quite big. Nighter did I want to go and teach Pranayama today… I felt so lack of everything. And then I had wonderful talk with one of my dear wise friends and she advised me to listen to do what I needed. If it is to stay at home, then I should do it… I had to just stay in that feeling for little more.
Then I got this voice in me again. “Okay, done with feeling sorry for your self yet? Are going to continue and feel even worse or do something about it??”…
OH THAT VOICE!!!
Sometimes it really is annoying when it hits me in the head with a hammer. Okay, so quick check up…
For the first, I do not have any facts yet. So why get all messed up!?
For the second, When has a meeting with a interesting wonderful person got you feeling worse??
Or when has teaching Yoga or Pranayama made you feel worse??
The answers to these three questions are no, no, and no – EVER!
So I did what I had planed. I met this awesome person who I believe to be a new good friend, we had a really good laughter for the first because we had managed to pick all the same colors on our clothes; scarfs, jackets, tops, pants… That’s kind of funny but doesn’t stop there. After we had enjoyed a good vegetarian dinner we went to the Yoga studio there I teach and she would be with me doing the pranayama practice too and as we took our calendars out of our bags we saw that our calendars both were pink….And we both had the same color of socks. You can only imagine how we laughed! The Pranayama turned also to be really good as always. And I just love these classes and all the Yogis and Yoginis participating. The space in these classes is unbelievable.

 

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But friend, my point of this post is basically that most of the times what is standing in your way of to moving forward is you and only You.
It is okay to be vournable. It is okay to be angry or sad or disappointed but just don’t let it own you and color you with its darkness.
Accept and embrace the feelings and then kiss them good bye.
And You are already on your way to a next wonderful moment.
Love and Light!!
Thank You for this very lovely day  and thank you for the reminder <3
Yours truly,
Karoliina